Struggling...

[ verwirrung: missing someone ]

There are times really that somethings would really cross your mind about somebody. No matter how much you make yourself too damn busy just to forget her, there would really come a time that you'd stop and think of her. Like staring at the sky and seeing her face, its like the moon reminds you of her. Its kinda pathetic of trying to forget someone when you know deep inside of you that you cant and you wont forget that person, that very person who showed you something more than life itself. Well, it does helps sometimes just to get you going. The very thought of her makes you smile and it travels you to the time where you always wanted to be. In that state of happiness! Where nothing seems to matter but just the two of you... crazy aint it?! She's your only inspiration that keeps you going. There are times when you just wanna sit beside someone cause you're just too tired in making yourself too busy but you have nobody to sit beside with and you find yourself sitting alone, and the only company you have is the thought of her... Thinking if she's only beside you, then you'd ask for nothing else. God, I miss her... do I actually miss her? or I'm just trap in this loneliness again that I dont have someone beside me? Cant believe I'm thinking about her again... just when I thought I've let her go... maybe because today aint just any ordinary day... and I want someone beside me, who would hold my hand until I've cast away these loneliness... I wonder how it felt having to lean your head on someone's shoulder... I've forgotten how it felt. Why so soon??!

Why does it have to end? I wanna be complete again... wanna say is that, I miss you... Marie :'( How I wish you're here beside me... even just for today...

posted by: Dizzy (",) 5:09 AM

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[ I Miss You ]
Boyz II Men

Thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you babyI realize, it was juss my mind
Played tricks on me
And it seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time the phone ringsI pray to God it's you
And I just can't believe
That we're through
I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I can't deny itI miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me
Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to shareI refuse to believe
That you don't care
I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I can't deny itI miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me
I've got to gather myself as together
I've been through worst kinds of weather
If it's over nowThen I'll be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I've got to carry over

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:59 AM

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May 26, 2004

[ Breaking the Habit ]
Linkin Park

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
posted by: Dizzy (",) 2:54 PM

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May 07, 2004

[ its been a while... ]

its good to be back... i dont know what my reason was for not posting nothing for a long time...I really dont know, but maybe I'll just try to get back on track. I guess I have to continue postin' somethin' here, so I could get on track with everything that is happening to me, alot of things happened to me, things that changed me or anything but one thing is certain change is the only constant thing in this world, so a lot of news and experiences on the way.... keep 'em on track!
posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:36 PM

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[ Too Beautiful For Words Lyrics ]
Christina Aguilera

When I try to describe how I feel when you hold me
I get butterflies I HEAR lullabies, it's hard to explain
Like the sCent of a rose or the sound of the rain
It's too precious and too wonderful to give it a name

Too beautiful for words
A symphony inside me
Too beautiful for words
I can not take them lightly
Can you hear my silent heart

It's on the tip of my tongue
But my lips are still sealed
Only violins and their innocence can show you how I feel
And I hear them again
At the end of the day
I'm all teary-eyed when we kiss good-bye
There's nothing I can say

Must be a million times
I've tried to express this love of mine
When it goes this deep, when it tastes this sweet
It's not easy to define

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:36 PM

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April 15, 2004

:)
posted by: Dizzy (",) 12:25 PM

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November 06, 2003

[ Turn Table ]

I've been really wanting to have a turn table like make my own music and sh*t! huh?! but right now I dont have a single idea how I could get one but sure is it would be way too cool to have one. Dj spin that sh*t! let the mosh pit bounce!!!
posted by: Dizzy (",) 2:04 PM

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