Struggling...

[ What's there to brag about?! ]

Now what's there to brag about?! Don't come up
to me sayin' you smoked weed or something.
You're just trying too hard to be cool. I'ma tell
you somethin', to be cool don't tell. Don't tell
everybody that you do smoke weed coz that aint cool
enough. Don't come around me just to say all those
stuff coz I don't give an f. If you would like
to be cool enough well "drink your beer" if you
don't know that means well it simply means shut up!
Coz I'm not here just to deal with all of your sh*ts.
flauntin' is a sign of your insecurities, put that
in your head coz if y'all gonna come up to me again
sayin' those things well I might as well give you
the beauty of my middle finger, be-atch!!!

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:51 PM

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[ Life Goes On ]
Tupac Amaru Shakur

How many brothas fell victim to tha streetz
Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'
be a lie, If I told ya that I never thought of death
my niggas, we tha last ones left
but life goes on.....

As I bail through tha empty halls
breath stinkin'
in my draws
ring, ring, ring
quiet y'all
incoming call
plus this my homie from high school
he's getting bye
It's time to bury another brotha nobody cry
life as a baller
alchol and booty calls
we usta do them as adolecents
do you recall?
raised as G's
loc'ed out and blazed the weed
get on tha roof
let's get smoked out
and blaze with me
2 in tha morning
and we still high assed out
screamin' 'thug till I die'
before I passed out
but now that your gone
i'm in tha zone
thinkin'
'I don't wanna die all alone'
but now ya gone
and all I got left are stinkin' memories
I love them niggas to death
i'm drinkin' Hennessy
while tryin' ta make it last
I drank a 5th for that ass
when you passed....
cause life goes on

Yeah nigga
I got tha word as hell
ya blew trial and tha judge gave you
25 with an L
time to prepare to do fed time
won't see parole
imagine life as a convict
that's getten' old
plus with tha drama
we're lookin out for your babies mama
taken risks, while keepin' cheap tricks from gettin on her...
life in tha hood...
is all good for nobody
remember gamin' on dumb hoties at chill parties
Me and you
No true a two
while scheming on hits
and gettin tricks
that maybe we can slide into
but now you burried
rest nigga
cause I ain't worried
eyes bluried
sayin' goodbye at the cemetary
tho' memories fade
I got your name tated on my arm
so we both ball till' my dying days
before I say goodbye
Kato, we're meant to rest in peace
Thug till I die

Verse Three:

Bury me smilin'
with G's in my pocket
have a party at my funeral
let every rapper rock it
let tha hoes that I usta know
from way before
kiss me from my head to my toe
give me a paper and a pen
so I can write about my life of sin
a couple bottles of Gin
incase I don't get in
tell all my people i'm a Ridah
nobody cries when we die
we outlaws
let me ride
until I get free
I live my life in tha fast lane
got police chasen me
to my niggas from old blocks
from old crews
niggas that guided me through
back in tha old school
pour out some liquor
have a toast for tha homies
see we both gotta die
but ya chose to go before me
and brothas miss ya while your gone
you left your nigga on his own
how long we mourn
life goes on...

Life goes on homie
gone on, cause they passed away
Niggas doin' life
Niggas doin' 50 and 60 years and shit
I feel ya nigga, trust me
I feel ya
You know what I mean
last year
we poured out liquor for ya
this year nigga, life goes on
we're gonna clock now
get money
evade bitches
evade tricks
give players plenty space
and basicaly just represent for you baby
next time you see your niggas
your gonna be on top nigga
their gonna be like,
'Goddamn, them niggas came up'
that's right baby
life goes on....
and we up out this bitch
hey Kato, Mental
y'all niggas make sure it's popin' when we get up there
don't front.

posted by: Dizzy (",) 10:54 AM

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October 25, 2001

[ Moondust ]

Sitting under the moon dust
As the smoke hangs around me
Another cig falls to the ground
Why can't I find a way?
A way to see through myself
I've been searching for answers
But not a single one comes near
Feeling the emptiness again
I'm still here with nothing

Rain clouds within my eyes
I can't see my way
Inside another hope dies
Will I ever see another day?
Another day with you?

Crying under the moon dust
As the smoke clears
Another will has been found
I will find a way
A way to see through myself
I will find some answers
To get through you
Find some strength to love again

Inside another hope is rising
Seeing through myself
Kissing off the pain

posted by: Dizzy (",) 2:13 PM

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October 22, 2001

[ In A Rush ]
Blackstreet

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

how I try to express
whats been troublin' my mind
but still I cant find the words
but I know that somethings got a hold of me

baby someday ill find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you dont hear this song
i guess you'll never know

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel in
feel what I feel inside

and when i say inside I mean deep
you fill my soul
and thats something I cant explain
its over me

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:32 PM

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October 19, 2001

[ Marie ]

its been almost 3 years and i'm still on her. right now, i really cant
imagine seeing myself with someone else. i miss her. she was the only
girl that really showed me how is it to be loved. she was my first love.
if there's only i can do just to win her back but i think that will never
happen coz she told me so. i know we talked 'bout being good friends
but still i cant get over her. why cant i just forget bout her. i guess
i really cant coz forgettin' is not the answer but accepting. i still
cant accept the fact that i've lost her. i know i have to move on, but
that's what i'm trying to do right now! "soon as the sun comes at midnight"
maybe that's how soon i'll be over her. i really dont know, all i know
is that i do miss her! and i'm still waiting for the day that i would get
the chance hold her close again.... Ma, i know i told you
before that i will never bother you and i'm still do tryin' right now.
though in my heart i will never stop missing and loving you.

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:09 PM

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[ Soon ]
LeAnn Rimes

Soon Baby
I will cry my last tear
Soon yeah
I will be over you
Soon darlin'
All these tears wont be here

You know that I will be over you Soon
One night baby you wont be in my dreams
One night yeah
Ill finally make it through one night darlin'
I wont call out your name
I wont be in this place
Soon I will be over you

Soon as the mountains turn into rivers
Soon as the sea turns into sand
Soon as the sun comes up at midnight
That's how Soon

Soon all the hurt will end
until then ill just pretend
Soon it will be over
Soon Yeah
I Keep telling myself I'll be over you
Someday Soon

posted by: Dizzy (",) 2:26 PM

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[ Losin' the Love ]
Joy Enriquez

Not a day goes by without something
Reminding me of you
The truth is that I miss you
It gets so hard not being with you
There are times when I go crazy
In the twilight of the night
How I long to be your man again
There's pain that I hold
That will not let me go

I cried myself to sleep last night
When I woke up
There were tear stains on my pillow
It hurts so much to sacrifice what i gave up
Without you in my life
I will always feel lonely
Losing the love
From someone like you

posted by: Dizzy (",) 2:22 PM

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October 10, 2001

[ Think God Can Explain ]
Splender

There's a lot of things I don't understand
And there's a lot of things
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
To look me in the eyes

It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away

The scent of vaseline
In the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small
When I begin to cry

I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:59 PM

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October 08, 2001

[ Bad Day ]
Fuel

Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again.
Spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace.
Smeared the lipstick on her face.
Slammed the door and said "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again."

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on

And had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note it said, "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again."

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:42 PM

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October 04, 2001

[ Be Like That ]
3 Doors Down

He spends his nights in California, watching
The stars on the big screen
Then he lies awake and he wonders, why
Can’t that be me
Cause in his life he is filled with all these good intentions
He’s left a lot of things he’d rather not
Mention right now
But just before he says goodnight, he looks
Up with a little smile at me and he says

If I could be like that, I would
Give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

Now and dreams we run

She spends her days up in the north park,
Watching the people as they pass
And all she wants is just a little piece of
This dream, is that too much to ask
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a
quiet little street
All she wants is just that something to
Hold onto, that’s all she needs

Yeah!!
I’m falling into this, in dreams
We run away
Falling in
I feel I am falling in, to this again

posted by: Dizzy (",) 5:01 PM

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October 03, 2001

[ How You Remind Me ]
Nickelback

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick and silent without sense of feeling
and this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
this time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong
I've been down
into the bottom of every bottle
these smart words in my head
scream are we having fun yet

yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

Its not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
it must hace been so bad
cuz little women must have damn near killed you
This is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
This is who you remind me
This is how you remind me
This is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

posted by: Dizzy (",) 7:18 PM

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[ Here's To The Night ]
Eve 6

So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

posted by: Dizzy (",) 7:16 PM

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