Struggling...

Cess, this was the first thing that came to my head. still remember this song?!
you're the one who wrote the lyrics of the song for me....

[Still Waiting ]
K-Ci & Jojo

I'm telling you something
Girl you should listen
I'm making an offer
But it's your decision
The Choice is yours
It's all up to you
So don't be a fool
You know who to choose girl
Every time I see you walking by
With the other guys
I just wonder why
Can't that be I
Kissin your lips
And rubbing your thighs
Waking up every morning
By your side
Tell me why

I'm still waiting for you
To come feel ecstasy
On my knees
Check my stees
Let me knock it with ease
I'm still waitin for the day
When I can fill his space
When I can take his place
You can fill my face all around you, girl
Uh, Huh

I'm dreaming about you
Scheming to catch you

Been meaning to tell you
I'm feeling to smell you
It's nothing that you said
It's nothing you did
It's just the way you are
Girl you flip my lid
Every time I see you walking by
With the other guys
I just wonder why
Can't that be I
Kissin your lips
And rubbing your thighs
Waking up every morning
By your side
Tell me why

posted by: Dizzy (",) 12:33 AM

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[ sleepless night ]

another sleepless night... its almost 12 midnight,
and I really cant sleep. thoughts are running through
my head again. I just spent the rest of the day with
some of my friends (Ferby, Ryan & the rest), its so
happened that I saw Cess and we were able to talk
but it was quick coz she has to leave for the practice
thing. Cess was my crush way back when I was still in
3rd yr high. She was the second girl who dumped me
but just a year after she told me that she almost did
love me, but b'coz of religion conflict she chose not
to tell me her true feelings. Cess and J are almost
the same, with regards to their personality i think.
i dont know... the way they speak, laugh, I mean all that.
one thing I love bout Cess is that I really could talk
to her bout my true feelings, and she really is open
to me too. I remember when i gave her a stuff toy, i was
like kidding her what name would she give to that toy..
and she answered very softly, "Shane.." it took me couple
of mins. just to get it why such name... Sharon and Dane...
She was also the one who started calling me "Dane" coz before
i used to use Dan. I really find it sweet when she's calling
me that name. To be honest I still feel something special
for her. I'm posting this to my blog coz I really wana keep
the memories, the time I spent with her. Cess, just wana thank
you for everything.. its enough for me to know that you did
love me though you didnt tell it to me...

posted by: Dizzy (",) 12:30 AM

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March 11, 2002

[ where? ]

"where do broken hearts go?" just wondering bout
the song... like i do believe that mine's broken...
they told me to follow my heart and damn it! still
haven't learned my lessons i guess... well i guess
its better that way. i mean all i really wanted is
to be with someone and i wont find that unless i find
the courage to say it out loud.... just wish i really
could find the girl who would love me as me...

[ Where Do Broken Hearts Go ]
Whitney Houston
I know it's been some time
But there's something on my mind
You see I haven't been the same
Since that cold November day
We said we needed space
But all we found was an empty place
And the only things I learned
Is that I need you desperately
So here I am and can you please tell me

Where do broken hearts go
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that's waiting there
and if somebody loves you
Won't they always love you
I look in your eyes
and I know that you still care for me

I've been around enough to know
That dreams don't turn to gold
And that there is no easy way
No you just can't run away
And what we had was so much more
Than we ever had before
And no matter how I try
You're always on my mind
So here I am and can you please tell me

And now that I am here with you
I'll never let you go
I look into your eyes
and now I know, now I know

For me, you still care for me
posted by: Dizzy (",) 5:53 PM

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March 01, 2002

[ Blurry]
Puddle Of Mudd

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

This pain you give to me
you take it all
you take it all away...
explain again to me
you take it all away
explain again to me
take it all away
explain again

posted by: Dizzy (",) 4:47 PM

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