Struggling...

[ sleepless night ]

another sleepless night... its almost 12 midnight,
and I really cant sleep. thoughts are running through
my head again. I just spent the rest of the day with
some of my friends (Ferby, Ryan & the rest), its so
happened that I saw Cess and we were able to talk
but it was quick coz she has to leave for the practice
thing. Cess was my crush way back when I was still in
3rd yr high. She was the second girl who dumped me
but just a year after she told me that she almost did
love me, but b'coz of religion conflict she chose not
to tell me her true feelings. Cess and J are almost
the same, with regards to their personality i think.
i dont know... the way they speak, laugh, I mean all that.
one thing I love bout Cess is that I really could talk
to her bout my true feelings, and she really is open
to me too. I remember when i gave her a stuff toy, i was
like kidding her what name would she give to that toy..
and she answered very softly, "Shane.." it took me couple
of mins. just to get it why such name... Sharon and Dane...
She was also the one who started calling me "Dane" coz before
i used to use Dan. I really find it sweet when she's calling
me that name. To be honest I still feel something special
for her. I'm posting this to my blog coz I really wana keep
the memories, the time I spent with her. Cess, just wana thank
you for everything.. its enough for me to know that you did
love me though you didnt tell it to me...

posted by: Dizzy (",) 12:30 AM


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