Struggling...
struggling to get on with life...
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| "Love stands on weakness", "only weak people fall, they fall in love" - the profound truth of life |
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| "I'm officially missing you" |
| "love like you've never been hurt before..." |
| "sometimes the best is no damn good..." |
| "I wonder what it takes to earn your trust?" |
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December 23, 2002
[ confused...?! ]
this day turn out to be one of those days that you wouldn't expect that something great would happen. It all started when I texted Marie the other night, she called me up and we've talked for almost an hour. She asked me if she could see the video of my birthday, so today she went to my house with Pam. It was great, coz I never knew she'd be back in my house so soon. We did watched the video, and she also looked at the pics. I bought her an ice cream coz that was what she was craving for the last time we've talked. I bought her the double dutch thing coz that is her favorite and I still havent forgotten bout it. We also watched a movie just to kill time, and you know what's the best part of it? she was the one who's feeding me that ice cream... how sweet! and I'd wish that the day would never end. It was so nice having her beside me and I just feel so happy! she also gave me her latest pic with dedication, at the moment I have 4 pics of her in my wallet. guess I really I'm still in love with her. I also gave her the cd the I have made for her. The songs there are great, those are the songs that reminds me of her. well, the time doesnt time, so she went home at about 6pm. Just wish that I could get her to stay a li'l bit more. Wish I could freeze the time and make that last forever... right now I'm just so happy being with her again... though it left me asking myself again. "why can't it be the two of us?", "why does it has to end?", those are the questions that I have for now. Its a crazy thing, but I'm just so happy right now. I also let her listen to the song that I dedicated to her, the song "When I see you smile" by Uncle Sam. I love that song. right now, I know I'm confuse again on the things I should do. really dont know, its hard to explain. All I know is that I love her still but I just cant let see that... or is it just that she doesnt want to see it, she's been denying it to herself that I really love her. I dont know. Guess I really have to move on... and find someone else. she told me that I should find someone who would take care of me, what she doesnt know is that it's her whom I want to take care of me. I really dont know why things should be left the way they are...
"when I see you smile, I could face the world.... "
posted by: Dizzy (",)
7:52 PM
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